I Am Wanted

Growing up, I had a pretty normal life with a family that loved me and looked out for me. My mom struggled a lot with her health and was in and out of the hospital. It was getting really bad when I was ten, where my mom could not take care of her children anymore. I remember one day, my mom sitting us kids down and saying, “I am not able to take good enough care of you because of my health.” She then told us that we were going into the foster care system while she gets her health taken care of.

This was the scariest time of my life. I went from being with my family to going to a whole new town with people I had never met.

This was the scariest time of my life. I went from being with my family to going to a whole new town with people I had never met.

When I was younger, I would go to church on the weekends because my parents told us to and I would hear over and over how much Jesus loves me, but I did not know what that meant. I thought, ‘How could someone love me and then take away my family from me?’ I didn’t understand.

Going into foster care, I was told it was going to be a temporary situation and I would get to be with my family again. As time passed, I would get to visit my mom every week and look forward to the day when I would go back with her. That was all torn apart eventually. I was told that my mom was giving me up permanently and that I would be going up for adoption. This broke my heart even more than before because I did not feel like anyone loved or cared about me because of all the things that had happened to me.

I did not feel like anyone loved or cared about me because of all the things that had happened to me.

During this whole time, I had been going to church with my foster mom and was getting to know others in the church. One lady in the church, who had two other kids, told me they wanted to adopt me and make me part of their family. I was so excited because I was going to have a family again and be with people who love me.

Throughout the adoption process, you have to have several home visits, so I would go over to hangout with them and was getting ready for the process to be over. As we got close to the end of the process things ended up not working out with the family and they decided not to go through with the adoption.

I felt like he was bringing people into my life just to take them away from me.

I was so upset with the Lord. I felt like he was bringing people into my life just to take them away from me. I began to feel too unworthy to be loved. I still continued to go to church, even though I was angry with God.

Since the parents in my new foster home did not go to church, other families in the church would take me. It had been just over a year since the adoption didn’t work out. One of the families that usually picked me up did not come, so I thought it was weird. I called their house and their mom picked up and I asked if they were going to church. She said her kids were supposed to get me but must have forgotten, so she came and got me. On the way to church, she said that her family had been talking and praying and they felt like someone was missing from their family and that person was me. She asked me how I felt about that. On the outside I was excited and all, but on the inside I knew that this was not going to be a thing. As time went on, I did the house visits and got to know them better.

It was getting near the end of the process and it actually happened. I got a new family.

It was getting near the end of the process and it actually happened. I got a new family. I was so happy and grateful to the Lord. As I have gotten older and looking back on this journey the Lord has taken me on, I can see that He had my best interest in mind. Many times we think we know what is best for our lives and the Lord has so much more for us. Know that when you face hard things in your life, the Lord is right there with you and you can always count on him to bring you out of those things.


Randy has a heart to serve and always puts the needs of others ahead of his own. Once you get to know him, you’ll soon realize he’s one of the funniest guys you’ll ever meet! Randy has been on staff for nine years with YWAM Louisville.

4 comments on “I Am Wanted

  1. Cheryl & Michael Moore said on

    Thanks Randy for sharing your testimony with us. Wow! We had no idea of what all you had been through as a kid and just love you all the more for it for not giving up. It was such a blessing to have you with us overseas in Germany ministering at the English camps and the kids there all thought you were pretty cool. Amazing that you’ve been with YWAM nine years already. Godspeed to you in your future and wherever He leads you to next. Let us know if you ever get to the Phoenix area as we’d love to see you and reconnect again. Cheryl and Mike Moore

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  2. Teresa said on

    Randy your heart and passion for sharing God’s love inspires everyone around you. I have watched that scared young boy grow into a wonderful young man. Keep sharing your testimony….you are touching lives that need to know they are wanted. Love and Prayers ! Teresa

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  3. Ruby Simpkins said on

    Randy or Joseph as I knew you when “Happy tails” needed time and I watched you and your siblings. We had 2 foster children of our own and. your mom.asked if I would take you 4. I guess I didn”t realize it would become permanent. When I learned she had given you 3 up, I prayed. It would be awhile before I heard more about how things went for all 4 of you. I praise God for your journey in His grace. I continue to pray for the lives of my school hood friends children. Thanks for being open to telling your story. I pray God uses your faithful walk to increase His story and glory. Blessings

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  4. Danielle said on

    Your testimony is so powerful and I’ve told the story of the missing sibling to so many people because it’s an amazing answer from God.
    So proud of the man I’ve seen you grow into & proud to call you my brother. God is doing so many great things. It blesses my heart to see Him leading & you following.

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